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| I've been called a lot of things before... I mean you name it and I've
probably been called it. Childish i've never before. ohhhh
now I'm hurt. It's funny to me how the people that call me
childish gave me that name for the things that've done that I can
honestly say I learned it from them.
To all the people reading this.... LEAVE ME ALONE> I don't
want to hear what tim and krysten are saying about me. I don't
care. I know that they are insecure. I know that Tim
cheated on me. I know that Krysten well is krysten. I don't
have to sit here and listen to people say "krysten said this" "tim said
that" who gives a shit. It's their problem that they can't let it
go. It's their problem that they feel like i'm still messin with
their life. It's their problem that they can't get over me.
That tim still thinks of me and that Krysten is scared that I'll get
him back. News for both of you and anyone reading. Krysten
I don't want him back. NO honey far from it. Infact to say
that I want him back would screw up what I've got right now. I
don't cheat. I won't cheat. I am sorry that I caused tim to
cheat on you. If I could take it back I would. I would take
back a lot of stuff that I let happen between me and tim. I don't
talk about yall, except when I'm drunk and that doesn't even happen
anymore -thanks Bryan- I am moving on and trying to find someone
else. this will be the last comment ever made about Tim and
Krysten. They have to be left alone -directed to the informants-
in order for them to get their problems worked out whatever they may be
no one needs to be in the way. Tim and Krysten - good luck.
I hope things work out. Not only am I hearing the bad but I do
hear good. That you two are really happy, and I know believe me
when I say I'm happy for you. I've moved on from the way I
was. I've grown up some. I've still got more growing to do
just like you and everyone else. But I'm making a concious
effort. You two were the ones that jumped all over me for writing
on my xanga about you and according to certain people you both make
comments about "the girl" "the ex" "that one time" what ever comments
just stop. That will end everything. I'm not talking about
yall and I'm not lookin for a fight. But I'm real tired of hear "tim
said this" krysten said that" So maybe if noone mentions it it will go
away. Like I said before this is my last post and to everyone
callin.... I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!!!!!
To Chad- Honey sorry if you read this, but you got mad the other
night and I'm sorry. I thought we had worked this out...
hopefully this will show you how I really feel. And Yes this is
my last post I will be closing this Account soon. Just as a soon
as I know I'm heard. Thanks baby for your support... I love you,
Jess
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| You don't have to be mean. No I wasn't drunk. A guy that I was
talking to about you tellin him I still remembered your number through
my fingers and how much it sucked cus I hate you took my phone and text
you while I was in the bathroom. Sorry I ruined you and her lives
wasn't my intent. If I had intended to I would have done it the
right way.
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| I've been feelin pretty homesick lately. I don't really know why. I
don't really have a reason to feel this way, I just do. I'm so busy
with school and work that I hardly have time for anything else. I
cried today and it was nice. I've been hurting a lot lately and well
needless to say I haven't had a real oportunity to cry. I called my
parents and just balled. Not too sure why, I guess I just miss my
family. I told my parents of my anger towards Tim for hurting me the
way that he did. I told them that it seems like it will never go
away. I don't want to be mad anymore. I don't want to be depressed
anymore. I used to just pull myself out of this shit and right now I'm
really struggling with it. I'm sitting in my apt all alone and I can't
stop feeling sad and lonely. I know I'm not really lonely I just feel
that way. Sure I've got great friends and sure I've got so many people
that love me, but for some reason it just won't kill the loneliness.
Some day this will all be over but for right now, I'm just gonna be sad
for a while. I guess I hide it well cus not too many people know that
I've been feeling this way. In fact I have a daunting suspicion that
noone knows. Oh well, now those of you that care about what I write
know how I feel. It's funny though I'm looking at my counter and No
one has even looked at my blogs in over a week. I guess no one really
cares to hear what Jessica has to say. That's alright I just keep
writing to myself till I get bored of it then no one will hear from me
again. Funny - that's what Tim always wanted - for me to dissappear. | | |
| Tim- please leave me alone. Everytime you talk to me it still hurts. Just please let leave me a lone and let me heal. I can't go on hurting any more. I need to move on from this mess. I need to live in peace. Please don't do this to me anymore. I must go on with my life. Don't talk to me anymore. Good bye love. It was great while it lasted but it's over. Go to Krysten, she needs someone in her life. Treat her right and the only way to do that is to stop thinking of me. I am no more.
Jess | | |
| Ok well since people don't know how to mind their own business and some
think that I'm being childish when really I'm just trying to make sure
the truth is heard. I was lied to for so long by a particular
person I don't see it fit that he lie to another person just so he gets
what he wants. But whatever you can take it how you please but
one thing is still bugging me. I didn't go to your site or anyone
you know and write what i wrote I did it on my own. If you aren't
worried about what I have to say then why are you reading. I
haven't done anything wrong. I don't talk shit other than you
took my fucking fiance and when you really boil it down i'm not mad at
you I'm mad at him for playing me. You would be too if it had
happened to you. So instead of acting your age you could at least
take a moment to see what is really going on. You would see how
hurt I am because of him and how hurt I am that i was lied to the way I
was. As far as I'm concerned I haven't tried to break you up,
again though you're the one that will drag this out even longer by
posting a comment on my site. Next time I post on here it will
just be for the eyes of those I want to see it. That way you
won't be tempted to read what I post. Stop worring about me and
my life. These xanga sites are bull-shit if you can't write what
you feel. That's it for me no more xanga. I'm done with
this bull-shit if you really wanna know what's going on in my life you
know how to get a hold of me.
later forever
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